New pictures!

the amazing heather with chickypoo photography took new pics of my little beauties.

here's a couple to satisfy your interest until they are all done being edited :)

L-O-V-E

i've always wondered and even asked "how did you know when you were in love" and i always got the same answer "i just knew" it seemed like such a load of crap to me... but now i get it.

i am extremely blessed

the past few weeks have been quite a roller coaster ride. as you know kimber showed up with a mass in her chest a few weeks ago. she had a dr's appt, lab work and xrays a few days after it showed up. her xrays were completely normal. a week after her bump showed up it doubled in size, we order an ultrasound that was completely non-diagnostic, that night the radiology facility wanted to do an mri. she had that done and again it was non-diagmostic, they though she needed a biopsy. well luckily i have some connections thru work and we were able to get another mri a couple days later, that radiologist said kimber had/has a separated rib and worst case scenario some possible infection. the day after her mri her lump started shrinking and has since disappeared. i can only it explain it by saying we prayed it away. i am so grateful that kimber's issue was a non-issue, thank you for your prayers...

please help

ok guys-
i'm writing to ask for your prayers, healing thoughts, positive energy (whatever you can offer) for kimber. she has been complaining of some rib/chest wall pain for about 5 weeks. we watched it and tried to figure out what was causing it but w/ no recollection of an injury just had her rest when it hurt. well this weekend she was complaining of pain again and told me she felt a bump, she has some sort of bump/mass/growth or something just to the left of her sternum. she has a dr appt tomorrow to have some xrays. i'm totally freaking out. if you all wouldn't mind taking a moment to help her out that would be much appreciated. i'll keep you posted.

mommy moments

this is actually my first post of the year... yeah i've been busy
so, i saw an advertisement for a contest for mothers day, you were supposed to send in an essay of your favorite mommy moment. it got me thinking and this is what i came up with :)

I am a single mom to 3 amazing little girls ages, 8, 5 and 3. This means I have many moments to choose from. It would be easy to say the first time i lied eyes on each of my children or the first time they said "I love you." It could be the time my oldest daughter, Kimber, told me to "take a long walk off a short pier," or the time i got a letter fom her that said "Dear Mom you are not respekting us. Love Kim," or the time she won an award at school for having great character, or every time she brings home a perfect spelling test with a huge smile on her face. My favorite moment could be the time my 5 year old doubled over with laughter because my "jiggly arm was hilarious" as i was blow drying her hair, or when she wore a skirt and carried a purse during the TBall opening ceremony parade rather then pants and her glove, or when she opted to lay in the grass and pick clovers in her 1st TBall game. Maybe my favorite moment was the time my 3 year old was mad at me because it was time to get out of the bath and she told me, "you aren't pretty and you aren't a princess," or all the times she tells me she loves me and I'm pretty and I'm a princess, or the time she asked her grama if she could "hang out and eat candy with her for 5 days." It is nearly impossible to pick one moment that is my favorite. i guess it would be best said that my favorite mommy moment is from the moment they wake up to the moment they go to sleep and every single moment in between.


what's your favorite mommy moment?

that time of year

so it's that time of year when we all sit down and think about how bad we suck. at least that's what i do. i really am not one to make resolutions especially because everytime i do i make the same stupid ones that i don't keep. but here are my resolutions for 2010:

1. i would like to figure out who i am and who i want to be
2. i want to be a better mom and by better i mean, happier, more playful, less tense, calmer, more patient
3. i want to get healthier, in better shape, i don't have a goal weight or size but i would love to be able to look at myself in the mirror and not absolutely HATE what i see
4. which brings me to the last one i want to be healthier emotionally, i want to love myself for who i am and i don't want to feel guilty for loving myself or thinking good things about myself



i may come back and add to this later but what are your resolutions?

fhe

i need ideas! my girls are 7, 5 and 3.... help!!

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our family pics

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pls tell me what your favorite group shot is


love ya

Fat Friday

So i've totally been a slacker... i've been weighing in, but haven't posted. i weighed in today and i am down to 149. i haven't been that low since right around the time i got married. i am super excited.
i am also super excited to go to utah in two weeks. i am going to meet andrew, he and i have been talking and been friends since about january. i can't wait.

2 years

so this weekend marks the two year anniversary of when i left josh. i'm not quite where i thought i would be 2 years later, although i don't really know exactly where i thought i'd be. i can tell you that i thought he'd be more involved, i didn't think i'd still be living in the same tiny place i live in, but i don't want to leave my ward. i didn't think i'd be struggling with certain things and doing so well with others. most days i am pretty happy with my little world. most days i'm not too lonely, most days i don't feel sad that i'm not a relationship, and most days i feel like if that never happens i'll be ok. all that being said i don't want to be single and alone for the rest of my life. i loved being a wife, i love the idea of being a wife and hopefully some day, sooner rather than later ;), i get to be that for someone who loves me and will appreciate how much i enjoy taking care of others and being part of a team. i can honestly say i am happiest when i make others happy.
with father's day coming up tomorrow my thoughts are drawn to my dad. my dad(who legally is my step-dad) married my mom when he was 21, my mom was 26 and had a 7 year old and me i was almost two. i have felt so much love from him my entire life. he stepped in and made up for my "real" dad being out of the picture. i never felt like his step-daughter, i honestly don't think he's ever even called me that. i hope one day my girls are lucky enough to have a man in their lives like him.
just as a quick side note: how do you feel about long distance relationships?

Fat Friday #3

well this is going painfully slow, i went to the gym only two times this week, but i still managed to lose another pound woot woo!! How are you doing?

kim's gems

kimber, who is 7, says some of the wittiest, funniest, sassy-ist things i have ever heard. i want to record them somewhere. here are a couple from this week.

**tuesday night we were in our yard. i was on the phone and the girls were playin superheroes. kimber, being the oldest, was handing out super hero names. she told ellie her name was super tiny, to which ellie responded, "SUPO TINEE" kimber said " your power is: you turn grass into tiny grass" then maddy said "and i'm flower power" i told my friend on the phone " i think we just started a landscaping company"

**this morning, kimber was grumpy and sassy and we had been arguing a little bit (i don't want to hear about how i shouldn't be arguing with my 7 year old) so we got in the car and she looks at me and says "mom, why do you put makeup on every day? is it just to make me jealous?"

i'm pretty sad today

i don't know if anyone has some advice or an opinion on this matter, but i'm really struggling today and i need the help of friends. so today josh came over to do some work for me to pay off some of the child support he owes andi asked him if we could sit down and talk. i let him know that the girls really need him, that they cry for him almost every day, i suggested that we try to work out a way for him to be more involved, i offered to let him come stay at my house and use my car every other weekend and i would go to my mom's, i offered him to take my car one night a week to take them to the park, he's way behind in child support and i never say a word to him about it, that isn't what it is about. my girls need their dad, they need someone to teach them what love from a man looks like, they need him to protect them, they need him to be their dad. i told him all of these things and he told me he doesn't care how i feel, and i reminded him it isn't about how i feel it's about the girls and what they need, because if i got what i wanted he would be an amazing dad but i know he's not gonna do that because that's what history has shown me an dif he can't be a good dad here consistently i would rather he just check out completely. of course that was teh only thing he chose to hear and he told me that if that was what i wanted then that owuld be what i get, he told me not to call him anymore and he wasn't gonna come around, so of course now he gets to say that he's not coming around because of me. i don't know what to do, i am so worried that i won't be able to do and give and teach them everything they need, i can be the best mom in the world but that is no substitute for having a good dad. i can not be a mom and a dad, i don't know what to do, i don't know what to tell them when their dad dosn't come around and they wanna know why... today this feels like more than i can handle...

fat friday

so i suck, i didn't get to the gym this week, not even one time, i did however go to the zoo last saturday, i have been eating healthier and i cut out soda completely. i have to replace it with enough water, and i've been having light mango smoothies from jamba for breakfast everyday, i feel tons better but unfortunately only lost one pound. i guess this is good, that's the way i've been doing it for the last year, slow and steady and the weight has stayed off, so even though it looks as if i've plateaued, i can at least be grateful for not gaining. how did you do?

Poor Maddy

So we had our first trauma yesterday. As far as traumas go it was pretty minor. i got a call at work at 1:30 yesterday from kathy but ,missed it, theni get a text from my mom saying maddy split her head open and would likely need stitches... well i'm freaking a little at this point 'cause like i said, first trauma, i'm imagining the worst and prepping myself for something horrible, so i left work and went to pick her up. apparently kathy was filling up the pool and had the kids outside with her, they were waiting on the trampoline, maddy said it was wet i'm assuming to keep it cool, they had instructions not to jump, which i'm sure you can guess how well that went, so madds somehow smacked her head on the bar or spring or something...so we went to banner desert ER, we were there like 5 hours, i'll spare you the details but she ended up getting 4 stitches.

this was madds when i picked her up this was madds when we got to the ERthis was madds right before stitches

all doneat least she got a popsicle

fat friday

so, this is going to be kind of self depricating, how fun for everyone. i decided i need to be accountable to someone with this whole weight loss crap. so here is goes. i weighed in this morning and i weigh a disgusting 155 lbs, the grossest part is that i've lost some weight in the past year. so anyway, i'm finally well enough to go back to the gym, i've been three times since saturday and i'm swimming while i'm there to hopefully prevent another injury. i've been using the foam weights for resistance and feel like i'm getting a pretty good total body workout. so i'm going to weigh in on fat fridays and hopefully soon i'll be able to change it to thin thursdays, ha ha. you can join in if you want!

some random pictures

my cutie nephew tucker

the girls got cool summer cuts

ellie rockin' her goggles at our resort stay-cation


sandi and me at the suns game in april, the awesome necklace kimber gave me for mom's day

lydia

you should totally check these guys out
they have beautiful music

The June word

I totally stole this from my aunt heidi, but i had to share it.




The June word is STOP


Stop whining.
Stop blaming.
Stop denying your gifts.
Stop playing it safe.
Stop making excuses.

Stop doing anything that darkens your dreams.

Stop being anything that gets in the way of you being who you are.

Stop being with people who zap your spirit.

Stop going to places that you dread.

Stop being the parent you swore you'd never be.
STOP being the woman, man, friend, spouse, artist, boss, partner, co-worker you swore you'd never be.

If it hurts - stop.
Stop yourself before you've gone too far.

Stop letting people use you. Remember that "Use Me" is not a life motto. It's just a cool Bill Withers song.

Stop waiting for someone/anyone to give you the life you deserve. Give it to yourself.

Stop waiting for that ship to come in. Start swimming to it!

Stop wasting finite resources - food, paper, water, gas, money and your energy.

For at least 15 minutes every day - stop everything. Breathe.

Stop and smell the roses and lavender and cut grass and steaks on the grill and cinnamon rolls and fresh coffee and rain.

Stop saying YES when you really mean NO.

Find a mirror. Look into it and ask yourself, "What do I need to stop?" If there is a valid reason why stopping immediately won't work- START stopping. You are worth it.
Now... ready, set, STOP!