Monday, February 25, 2008

where have i been?

busy busy busy, that's where. this whole raisin' babies alone thing is HARD work! Let me give you a little bit of insight into my life. I get up at 5:30 get myself ready for work, then I get the girls ready ususally with a lot of fighting, kicking and screaming. If I'm lucky we get out the door by 7:15, then it's off to my mom's to drop Kimber off so she can get to school but doesn't have to be there so early, after that it's off to the sitter's to drop off Maddy and Ellie. Most mornings Ellie starts crying as soon as we round the corner to go to the sitter's and I have to try to keep my cool and not lose it with her. After i drop them off it's off to work usually i get there without a second to spare and in fact most days i'm late. So, I start work at 8 and go until 5 then i go pick everyone up, go home start dinner, get the girls showered and ready for bed then we all collapse in bed. You'll notice no where in there did I say I get any cleaning done, oh no thats what saturdays are for. So please dont ever stop by my house un-announced because I wont let you in. I've been really struggling lately with everything. I still haven't filed for divorce, it's such a big decision and once its done its so final. I get so angry sometimes with Josh that i have to deal with dropping kids off at daycare and having my mom take Kimber to school and never being able to volunteer in her class, or probably never get to go on a field trip with her. I am the one that has to deal with the cryinng and the owies and the fighting all the while trying to keep my own stuff together enough to be a good mom. All he has to do is send some money every two weeks and he thinks hes a wonderful father. Sorry i probably shouldn't be sharing this with anyone but it's been so long since I posted that i doubt if anyone is reading this anyways. On a lighter note Ellie is starting to say some words and actually this morning said "uh-oh" for the first time. That happens to be one of my favorite baby phrases. here are some pictures of the girls I had taken in December. Enjoy









8 comments:

Robin said...

I haven't checked your blog for a long time, but I still have you on my reader, and your new post just popped up. I love the pictures of the girls. I am sorry that you don't have a moment to yourself, sometimes I feel like that, but it has to be worse for you. I am sorry I hadn't called you back from a few days ago, I keep thinking I should right before one of my kids starts yelling for me. I love you and would like to help out sometime so you can go somewhere. I'll call tonight.

The MomBabe said...

I'm with Robin. You're on my reader and lo and behold, you finally posted! woo-woo!

Anyways, your girls are so darling! If you need help, call me. For reals, I'll be happy to steal some babies for a few hours.

♥ you!

The MomBabe said...

Girlfriend, I'm not moving quite yet. He turned down the job because they wouldn't wait 6 more weeks for us. So now our house is for sale and who knows where we'll end up. Probably at my mom's of something. Gulp.

Love you!

risa-rin-rales said...

Glad to see your post Lindy.... Hang in there. And as an outsider looking in your a terrific mom!!!
I love you

Kaylani said...

sounds like you could use a few hours to yourself! Send the girlies over on a saturday and enjoy some time to yourself...or you could come with them and we could watch them run around the back yard for a while! Love ya always! You're doing the right thing and you're a wonderful mom!

stapley times said...

I am always here for you! Call me ANYTIME!!! Love ya

Bingham family said...

The photos are awesome and if you can't vent on your blog then where can you. You are strong and will make it, and your girls will remember you as their mother who loved them. Your girls are beautiful, definitely comes from their mother!

Liz :) said...

Been there, done that! Being a mother is the hardest job in the world so I'm sure you're doing just fine.. TIRED.. but fine! Your kids will adore you more than anything because YOU were the one that was there for them. It is hard to see father's get the easy way out but when it's too late is when he'll regret missing all the "first"... Hang in there!