mommy moments

this is actually my first post of the year... yeah i've been busy
so, i saw an advertisement for a contest for mothers day, you were supposed to send in an essay of your favorite mommy moment. it got me thinking and this is what i came up with :)

I am a single mom to 3 amazing little girls ages, 8, 5 and 3. This means I have many moments to choose from. It would be easy to say the first time i lied eyes on each of my children or the first time they said "I love you." It could be the time my oldest daughter, Kimber, told me to "take a long walk off a short pier," or the time i got a letter fom her that said "Dear Mom you are not respekting us. Love Kim," or the time she won an award at school for having great character, or every time she brings home a perfect spelling test with a huge smile on her face. My favorite moment could be the time my 5 year old doubled over with laughter because my "jiggly arm was hilarious" as i was blow drying her hair, or when she wore a skirt and carried a purse during the TBall opening ceremony parade rather then pants and her glove, or when she opted to lay in the grass and pick clovers in her 1st TBall game. Maybe my favorite moment was the time my 3 year old was mad at me because it was time to get out of the bath and she told me, "you aren't pretty and you aren't a princess," or all the times she tells me she loves me and I'm pretty and I'm a princess, or the time she asked her grama if she could "hang out and eat candy with her for 5 days." It is nearly impossible to pick one moment that is my favorite. i guess it would be best said that my favorite mommy moment is from the moment they wake up to the moment they go to sleep and every single moment in between.


what's your favorite mommy moment?

that time of year

so it's that time of year when we all sit down and think about how bad we suck. at least that's what i do. i really am not one to make resolutions especially because everytime i do i make the same stupid ones that i don't keep. but here are my resolutions for 2010:

1. i would like to figure out who i am and who i want to be
2. i want to be a better mom and by better i mean, happier, more playful, less tense, calmer, more patient
3. i want to get healthier, in better shape, i don't have a goal weight or size but i would love to be able to look at myself in the mirror and not absolutely HATE what i see
4. which brings me to the last one i want to be healthier emotionally, i want to love myself for who i am and i don't want to feel guilty for loving myself or thinking good things about myself



i may come back and add to this later but what are your resolutions?

fhe

i need ideas! my girls are 7, 5 and 3.... help!!

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Fat Friday

So i've totally been a slacker... i've been weighing in, but haven't posted. i weighed in today and i am down to 149. i haven't been that low since right around the time i got married. i am super excited.
i am also super excited to go to utah in two weeks. i am going to meet andrew, he and i have been talking and been friends since about january. i can't wait.

2 years

so this weekend marks the two year anniversary of when i left josh. i'm not quite where i thought i would be 2 years later, although i don't really know exactly where i thought i'd be. i can tell you that i thought he'd be more involved, i didn't think i'd still be living in the same tiny place i live in, but i don't want to leave my ward. i didn't think i'd be struggling with certain things and doing so well with others. most days i am pretty happy with my little world. most days i'm not too lonely, most days i don't feel sad that i'm not a relationship, and most days i feel like if that never happens i'll be ok. all that being said i don't want to be single and alone for the rest of my life. i loved being a wife, i love the idea of being a wife and hopefully some day, sooner rather than later ;), i get to be that for someone who loves me and will appreciate how much i enjoy taking care of others and being part of a team. i can honestly say i am happiest when i make others happy.
with father's day coming up tomorrow my thoughts are drawn to my dad. my dad(who legally is my step-dad) married my mom when he was 21, my mom was 26 and had a 7 year old and me i was almost two. i have felt so much love from him my entire life. he stepped in and made up for my "real" dad being out of the picture. i never felt like his step-daughter, i honestly don't think he's ever even called me that. i hope one day my girls are lucky enough to have a man in their lives like him.
just as a quick side note: how do you feel about long distance relationships?

Fat Friday #3

well this is going painfully slow, i went to the gym only two times this week, but i still managed to lose another pound woot woo!! How are you doing?

kim's gems

kimber, who is 7, says some of the wittiest, funniest, sassy-ist things i have ever heard. i want to record them somewhere. here are a couple from this week.

**tuesday night we were in our yard. i was on the phone and the girls were playin superheroes. kimber, being the oldest, was handing out super hero names. she told ellie her name was super tiny, to which ellie responded, "SUPO TINEE" kimber said " your power is: you turn grass into tiny grass" then maddy said "and i'm flower power" i told my friend on the phone " i think we just started a landscaping company"

**this morning, kimber was grumpy and sassy and we had been arguing a little bit (i don't want to hear about how i shouldn't be arguing with my 7 year old) so we got in the car and she looks at me and says "mom, why do you put makeup on every day? is it just to make me jealous?"

i'm pretty sad today

i don't know if anyone has some advice or an opinion on this matter, but i'm really struggling today and i need the help of friends. so today josh came over to do some work for me to pay off some of the child support he owes andi asked him if we could sit down and talk. i let him know that the girls really need him, that they cry for him almost every day, i suggested that we try to work out a way for him to be more involved, i offered to let him come stay at my house and use my car every other weekend and i would go to my mom's, i offered him to take my car one night a week to take them to the park, he's way behind in child support and i never say a word to him about it, that isn't what it is about. my girls need their dad, they need someone to teach them what love from a man looks like, they need him to protect them, they need him to be their dad. i told him all of these things and he told me he doesn't care how i feel, and i reminded him it isn't about how i feel it's about the girls and what they need, because if i got what i wanted he would be an amazing dad but i know he's not gonna do that because that's what history has shown me an dif he can't be a good dad here consistently i would rather he just check out completely. of course that was teh only thing he chose to hear and he told me that if that was what i wanted then that owuld be what i get, he told me not to call him anymore and he wasn't gonna come around, so of course now he gets to say that he's not coming around because of me. i don't know what to do, i am so worried that i won't be able to do and give and teach them everything they need, i can be the best mom in the world but that is no substitute for having a good dad. i can not be a mom and a dad, i don't know what to do, i don't know what to tell them when their dad dosn't come around and they wanna know why... today this feels like more than i can handle...